Confessions of today: he like totally broke my heart...i'm so sad...
i noe wad i did was wrong.he questioned me as thou as i'm a crimminal in a dentenion centre...i didn't noe wad to say at first.i was so afraid.i almost broke down and cry.i love him so much yet he questioned me like that.cant blame him.he was jux doing his job.cant blame him.he dun noe that i love him.but i cant tell him so.its all my fault fer today.jux wished that he cools down after this.hope he forgives what i have done after monday.i jux hope that i can please him by writting that 100 lines...all that i wan to say jux now to him was that i'm sorrie.i jux wanted to apologise but i couldn't say it out.i feel so useless. yaya-jie!!heelppp mie ppleaaaaseee!!i'm suffering from a kind of illness...i now hate him to dher core but i cant possibly hate him ferever cos deep own i still love him alot.
~upon the stars i wish. jux fer myself today. i wish that he would soothe down after my 100 lines that i write wif sincerity.~ i really regrett wad i hab done and hopes that he wouldn't put it to heart.i dun wan him to see mie in a negetive way. i wan to show him my positive side. i hab to be strong enough to overcome all storms so that calmness after the storm will come
`my condessions fer today ish done...jux hope dher stars above hear my wish-to-come-true' 210406 2250hrs i still love him to a thousand over miles liing2diia2_1917
22:34
20 April 2006
Guess wad??ii actually dreamt about him last night...so strange but it seems so real.the way he looked into my eyes in that scene ish totally,toatlly ROMANTICO!! ii really wish fer that moment to stay still and be it,too,real. but i noe that would neber happen.was that plate number supposed to be a 4D number?? 7070?? hmmm...that was the car plate number he changed to after changing from his SUZUKI grey model car to a classic red [i dunno wad kind of car]. background?? a malay wedding ceromony being held. location?? in a HBD carpark. wad time was that?? of course at night larx...thinking about wad happpened in my dream iish so...iish so...so making me fly up into the sky...tml!!tml can see him again...hope he dun too sad or too angry. i wiah upon the stars tonight to take good care of him. i really dun wiish to see him upset or angry.love him so much=)) -oh no!! it's a virus!!- [wadever.fcuk care]
~ to the stars above mie, please protect him,please watch over him,please let him noe that i care fer him. fer him, i wish, i pray to eu, please let him stay in good of health, neber to be angry nor sad.~ i care, thus i pray fer his health. i love him, thus i pray fer his happiness. as fer myself, i jux wished he knew i truly care fer him. aii ta 184.3344. my deardear bearbear =))
~my confessions of the one that i love so dearly~ 2346hrs.i love him till the day i love him no more.
23:30
07 April 2006
Asked myself today : wad do i actually like about him?? kind,considerate,understanding,motivation,characterstic...etc.but why?and when? Many asked me these question.now my confessions:
i like him cos he's all a lady wants: kind, considerate, understanding and loving. he never rejects anyone that come up to him and ask him questions. he helps everyone around and give these people the motivation to strive on.i took a liking to him when we went fer a fieldtrip[better not to say which one]. he trusts me, he considers how i feel about rejecting to work with someone else that i dun really like to work wif. he never questions my descision and allowed me to chose who i want to work with. he gives me the greatest motivation that i didn't get from others.whenever i see him, my heart feels as though as i'm in a swimming competition.haix...that feeling is indescibable. i love to see that paricular vehecal passing me or waiting it to enter the parking lot and see him step out from it.is so fascinating.i long to see him again in the weeks to come by.that motivation that floats through along with him brings great strength in me.i dun noe why, but i definately feel it that way. :D signing off, tannyi_ling2