jus came home after meeting kittyn andd gang. met kittyn andd hannya at kovan denn trained down tu compass tu mit e gang. go starbucks drink java chip. -my favv pls though ii hate drinking coffee- den shortly go findd my other darh-ling. den we cabbed down tu sgoon garden to ders pub.
met new friends, one called potato. banana friend from work. den ii drank 3 galss of martel andd bus-ed home. but cammed-whore alots today on kittyn's new toy, which she rather throw hannya off e building den her new toy. -hannya gave tt attitude look tu kittyn-
anyways,the gang still at sgoon garden.dun tink dhey will leave till bout 11 plus 12. waiting fer kittyn tu put up e pics on her new toy tu her blogg. -ii tink ii look crappy on camm today.lols-
tink wont be sleeping tomites.hab tu complete all e ppt fer intro project tonites.-me annd my toopid mouth tu say ii cann do e ppt slides fer intro.- projcet handing upp tml. if ii fucked it up, ii'm gonna be fucked by the group annd ii'll fuck myself up tu cuss ii'm in fer perfection tis year andd all years in tp.-good luck tu me darh-lings.-
habbt u stop blogging fer nw. HAB TU START ON PUTTING ALL PPT TOGETHER!! more posts up soon. -hopefuuly wont be questioned by eu guyss on why ii dun post frequently which ii dun usually do. MUAHAHAS.-evil-
22:10
26 June 2008
tired. stress. almost dying. HOW??!!
tml hab BM test andd ii haven yet study. IHT nxt monday hab tu hand in, norts complete.
rushing everything out at high speed.-OMG!-
but nw, still hab tym tu BLOG??!!
ii nid tu DESTRESS!!
ii nid an ESCAPE ROUTE!!
ii nid some HELPPPP!!
but,...WHO??!!
FUCK IT LARS! DYING SOON.ARGHH!
21:58
24 June 2008
-muahahahas- ii'm back but in sch blogging nw. lessons starts only at ten(10) am andd ii'm like in sch at 8.30am??!! -ii'm crazy.lols- mother sent me tu sch tdy,agains. sho nicceeee of mother.
nw outside of lecture theater(lt) 21, sitting alone wif my lappy, lovely violet/purple PSP slim, a bottle of green tea andd my beloved phone. -ha!- jus nw natt was wif me. -who's natt?- she's my matiee's besttie whom ii noe like randomly. -cus ii'm a pretty random person.lols XD- left wif bout 59mins before lesson starts andd no matiee is wif me. -such loner.but who cares.hahahs- natt left fer lessons alrdy andd by chance saw TEO YUHANG! he asked wad tym my lesson starts andd ii was like 10??!!, then he gave that sianed look. ii'm guai tu be in sch early okkii?? other tym came tu mit chye ii oso pulled myself off e bed tu reach sch by 8 jus tu mit her larrs. andd ii wasnt late!! -muahahaas-
another 9mins passed. looking at my phone occassionally tu see if anyy matiee had replied my msgg. ii'm waiting fer one of them tu come. from where ii'm sitting, ii cann hear the song played by the mass comm ppl via the Biz Park -business sch canteen-, Because you Loved Me by Celine Dion. the song is really nice. heard it played on my fone many a times. the lyrics are nicee too.
hais.nothing muchhies tu do now.shall endd blogg here.buttiee before ii end, here's my tym schedule fer tdy:-
10am: RHT (lab) 12nn : LUNCHIES wif maties (stephy, auntie andd maybe kevon) 1pm : POM (Principles of Mangagement) Lecture 3pm : IHT (Introduction to Hospitality and Tourism) Lecture 4/5 pm: start heading tu office tu tie up some stuff fer tml late into e nites: home sweet home.
ii noe my schedule is kinda boring, but, this is how its gonna be till mother finds someone else proper tu help her.
gotta go nw. stephy's cabbing down from home tu sch.recieved her msg jus nw.
loves,loves. cya.
08:54
21 June 2008
i declare tt tis is my 101th post on my blog. -muahahas-ii mus be crazy-
went tu kittyn's blog jus now.saw a comment on her by tis person who named his/her self "mummy". -nah!its not really kittyn's mum cus her mum is really nice.- yea,i'm pissed at tt person cus wad a lousy,toopid comment was tt? kittyn's not a dog. she's more lyk a kitty. -pls larrs, open eur eyes wider andd see.- anyways, ii did some bad commenting on tt person. -ii noe its bad, but wad cann ii say when ii see my lovely kittyn being insulted lyk tt?- ii told myself andd am still telling myself tt treat a person e way eu wann others tu treat eu. -maybe tt's why ii'm nice tu all my friends. bleh!-
okay.i've set my mind to go fer the sentosa training tml. hab been missing 2weeks of training alrdy.andd i'll be offically tanned once more. -shucks!-
ytd's lesson sucks. ii failed my first item by 2seconds. -tt's TWO(2) sickening seconds- was being commented by Patrick e starfish lyk mad andd ii almost cried but didnt.only tears formed in my eyes. -yea,ii hate being commented by people,including my parents.- gonna 加油 for my item 1 test. ii dun wann tu fail. its embrassing larrs. 3mins15secs. i'm gonna make it. jus watch and see. i'm goning tu break everyone elses record. jus watch me. -muahahas.evilll-
nothing else tu do alrdy. ii tml mus complete my project tu be handed in on monday or i'll be deducted marks. -anyone tml wann 陪me go to any cafe eat mahs? cus my project will be based on tt.-
monday start sch lerrs. still not in study mode. -crap-
18:25
20 June 2008
very sians. nothing tu do. PSP oso norts with me although younger sis is staying over at aunt's place till saturday. i hate it when mum lets other sis to use it when she andd bro hab their own PSP tu play though bro keeps playing with it and not letting her play. pls larrs, they hab tu share lyk how younger sis andd i are doing it. if norts, her own boyfriend hab his own too, take it from him larrs. stupid.
today oso hab training from 6-9plus. wed didnt go andd left poor jenny alone. -i'm so bad- well, today hab no other reason to skip BM lesson. today will be the second last lesson before the BM test and heard that our examiner is very jialat derrs. can test from evening 6pm to 12mn, nxt day ask students to come back agains, which they will hab a lower chance of passing the test. hopefully, none of my grp mates andd ii will suffer the tourture of coming back the nxt day. andd poor jenny will hab tu suffer along side us cus she hab tu re-take her BM test sho she cann continue working as a lifeguard.
well, in 3 days tym hab tu return back tu skool andd none of my assignments is done,especially Intro because hab tu hand in on the day sch re-opens. -it sucks- nxt tym round the breaks, gotta hurry do up all assignments before really enjoying the holiday. tis weekend really gotta sucks, cus hab tu chiong all assignments alrdy.-sians-
well, tis ish all fer now.-chaos!!-
14:30
19 June 2008
ii shall label this person tu be A, jus tu protect e identity.dun even try guessing who.
i know this person for quite some time back, longer than i know kittyn. time flies, and things changed. our relationship drifted. come to think of it, the times i spent with A was really nice. i rmbed once we went crazy and started taking neo-prints for one month, everyday. we looked really dumb in those neo-prints because we constantly did not know where to look at/camera was. those were the innocent days of us. then A and i were seperated because of our brain power difference. though A went somewhere else, we managed to meet up during breaks and after our stuffs for the day for lunch. but because of new friends, we did drift but became closer and A introduced another friend into my life. A was a really nice friend to be with, but because of curfew, A had to be home early. sometimes just to stay out late, i had to do a little story to cover up A's lateness to A's parents. we had fun together.
the time that we really drifted apart was when i said something which ain't supposed to be said. it hurt A's feelings and i lost A's trust towards me, and that was what made our relationship crashing down.
i know whatever i do now can never bring this relationship back and never thought of seeking A's forgiveness because it was a grave mistake that i had made. that mistake can never be turned back upon.
i just want to say how much i missed the times spending with A and the many crazy things we did. i really missed what we had gone through. forgiveness i seek and yearn, but it all depending on you. i don't know what it will feels like when we meet once again but i definately want to be there for you like long time ago.
fate lies in your hands.direct this relationship to a new start, i hope.
e feeling sucks to e core. i dont understand why is she treating me different from e rest. they can do whatever they like but i cant. if i do something different, she scolds. but when someone uses my idea but a modified one, she approves. -what e fuck- what is up with her, man?? i paid for something that i always wanted but they didnt and i dont get to use it and bring it out. when i do, she scolds me like e whole world is going to fall on her, but when they do, she just let them be. where is e justice? omg!she is so BIASED. i hate her.
i want to go out see kittyn, she dont let. saying i have been home late everyday. -what e, @$#$#^%#@!- excuse me pls, i have trainings from 1,3,5,plus trainings ends at 9plus, and since now is the holidays, i aint out with my friends, but sitting in e dumb stupid office helping you and working my ass off, plus not getting paid for everything i have done. all i get is scolding from you and wasting my every single minute sitting here in this dumb ass office! oh great!! that's my freaking holiday. -crap-
i aint capable?get someone else to do this stinky job of $20 per day. i just so much hate this job now. not cause of e pay, but e attitude you are giving me. oh fuck! #$%&(#@!$&)#!
should frequently update but my lappy's norts wif me all e tym.-damn it- crash course fer BM (bronze medallion) has started. but norts as crash as lifesaving 123. ha! okii.lots of crapp.-lols-
ii click along wif my instructor freaking well.ha! both of us are 'peas in a pod'. -lols-at least she's another crapper tt cann pour my freaking sorrows tu, only thingss bout e team andd stuffs andd she understands andd at tym we bitch-es bout unnecessary stuffs, lyk, ii dun noe wad.-cus we crapp too muchhiee lerrs-
(dun worry kittyn, euu will always be e one tt ii turn tu no matter wad happens, though eu now in malaysia, sho ii cann only tok tu my crapper instructor =D)
planned wad tu do after passing BM. listed out norts in order of merit:-
concentrate on my HTM studies.(ii cant afford tu fail) find job as lifeguard. (best will be at hougang swimming complex.cus hab crapper dher) do my ncap practical 1 (for the sake of my always beloved coach) continue taking courses (for sake of earning $$ simultaneously) ii wann more piercing from beloved kittyn. ...andd muchhiiee more tu list.-cant be bothered tu list those unimportant stuffs-
holidays left a week more.two bloody god-bros still owe me a movie each! -god! hab tu remind dhem agains- haven spend a proper holiday-day wif kittyn andd hannya. ii wann go shopping! ii wann go kl! ii jus wann be away from tis country fer awhile!! -HIGH COST OF LIVING HERE!-
now,gotta concentrate on passing BM asap. ii nid MONEYYY!! ii'm broke.dead broke.-fer god's sake!!- andd oso tu complete projects soon!! deadline's after holiday!! -ii'm sho dead!-
ii miss lots of ppl andd tym. ii miss spending tym wif kittyn andd nina after skool. miss sitting a void decks doing homeworks,revisions andd nonsense stuffs wif kittyn, nina andd hannya,especially wuzzying wif no license. -ha!- those after skool tym andd weekends spent tgt wif dem. now all are busy wif own stuffs andd nonsense andd new friendss, xcept fer kittyn who's slackiing at hme fer e tym being.
ii noe its been almost 10mths after o's, but ii freaking miss thosse tym. ii wann go back tu den but norts back into tt toopid skool. ii miss eu guys.literally.
week had been hectic. last week jus finished tests andd stuff. tis 2weeks is holidays tu complete all our assignments andd stuffs.many stuffs tu update on fer the past few weeks. -hate it when ii dun update frequently-damn-
-date: 9th- 10th June- hadd lifesaving camp andd trainings.-damn-tiring but fun. 9th morning, many peeps were late andd stuff. put bags in training rm andd proceeded wif ice-breaking andd "amazing race". quite a lame thing tu do but quite fun larrs. den we had lunches at mensa. was quite a bigg grp but ii kip feeling kinda left outt.-cliques agains-ii really damn hate cliques.shucks!- kept hanging ard wif selina andd wenn andd other guys who were very nice tu me. after lunches we rested andd played card games by the pool. peeps taught me how tu play bridges but still blur at it. while playing taidi, some guy threw a lizard on the pile of cards distracting us but main motive was tu get us tu change andd learn the various events for lifesaving competitions. after learning from uncle pat, we had tu do our sets fer trainingg.-1000m warm ups w/o stopping- den coach chen came.brought his sis, katherine, alongg.-yepps.ii noe her when training long tym ago.- did sets from the various events.-100m manikin relay- practiced from 25m instead of 50m sprint den hab tu somersault and do a underwater dive fer 17.5m w/o surfacing. among the girls, only ii cann do it larrs, andd coach was damn happy wif my performance.-but ii was bout tu die even before reaching 17.5m lorrs.- after training, when tu dance studio tu put our baggs andd went fer dinner opp. sch. met another zhss senior while in camp.his name is "jisian".-pardon me if ii got it wrong- yupps, after dinner hadd nites walk in engine sch. as usual, they did ders 人扮鬼吓人。-ii noe its e usual thingg, but wad happened wasnt nice.-they did it over 2 corridors of engine sch but ii walked e first corridor, third person, ii alrdy freaked out cus it wasnt nice doing all these thinggs after wad ii had experienced when ii went tu look fer kittyn e other tym. ii shook like a leaf andd cried cus ii was really scared. after nites walk, went back tu dance studio tu slp. ii slept alone but selina was beside me. slept infront of the mirrors but it didnt bother me tt muchh cus ii fell asleep very quickly after e intensive training andd scare during e nites walk.-ii hate nites walk- woke up a couple of tym bout lyk 5plus,6plus andd 7plus. 10th morning, morning hadd breakfast wif the team.but didnt eat anything cus aint use tu eating in e morning. after breakfast, had water bball andd water captain's ball.was quite fun. when games ended, ii went tu bathe while others continued wif training.-ii had tu leave cus hab tu help mum wif her office stuffs.-cabbed down tu enous tu mit up wif mum,lunched dher, mum bought us 2 PSP tu share andd went tu office. supposed tu mit kittyn,hannya andd nina but didnt cus 1st: no money. 2nd: mum's sick sho wann tu pei her. went wif mum and god-dad tu bugis tu do fone re-contracting andd get new fones. after tt, sent god-dad tu lil india tu mit his friends den mum andd ii went hm. showed lil sis e PSP we gotten andd she was shoo happy cus hab new "toy" tu play wif. damn tired sho dropped onto bed very fast.
- sorri kittyn tt neber mit eu.ii promise pei eu another day when eu gett back.lurb euu.-
-date: 11th June- morning wake up, raining sho heavily.-damn-weather sho cold andd freezing.mum was nice tu make me breakfast: 2packs of maggie noodles. -thanks mum!- ate andd left fer office tgt wif mum. settled e pay stuffs andd headed fer bm lesson@ 6pm.sho tiring sia. after lesson, went off wif jenny,wen andd lukai. went tu a coffeeshop drink andd tok lots of thinggs. told dhem lots of stuff tt cant be said infront of e whole team cus norts ii backstabb dhem, but is all e negative feelings ii feel within e team plus ii dun feel as though as ii'm in e team at all.-sadd- after tt, all went hm. anddd nw ii'm here blogging.-yepps-
if it wasnt fer e toopid cert, ii wont be suffering lyk tis larrs.feeling sho down inside.but luckily had jenny,wenn andd lukai tu tok tu if norts i tink ii'll be IMH:it's my home/insitution for mental health,soon.
-agenda fer tml- morning: grp discussion wif e classmates till 3. afternoon: tu mum's office tu help wif pay slips. nite: most prob dinner wif mum andd god-dad.
