22 August 2006

I jux wan tu tell him that i miss him alot...i jux wished could be back in the days in july 2006 where i could spent jux 3 days alone wif him. i jux wan tu be alone wif him...tu spend quality time wif him. nut i noe that he's busy nowadays so rather than tu bug him about the days, i prefer him tu concentrate on his work now. jux wan tu let him noe that i'm trying tu put myself into his shoes, trying tu understand him better and tu lessen his burden. he's too stress now, i noe that, jux wan tu tell him that he can tok tu mie about it. i may not understand, but i'll try my best tu do so. lastly, i jux wan tu tell him again that "i miss eu".

21:12

20 August 2006

You dont noe how it feels like... eu dun even come here tu read... all that i wan ish someone tu care and love me. all i nid ish eu... but...but... eu dont...its not eu dun...ish i dun feel it derx way eu had loved me, care fer me before. do eu noe how that feels? eu've left a really really deep scar in mie, a part of mie that i'm most sensitive , my HEART... and do eu noe that now that scar hurts alot?? derx pain of the hurtin' scar, the fear that eu will leave mie fer good... thoughts runnin' thru my head... i ask myself : why am i behavin' lidat? am i jux very folly?? i think that i'm very naive... i noe nothin'... nothin' at all... i've given my all tu eu... i care fer eu more den i care fer myself, i love eu more den eu love mie... but why?? why my love?? now i can only say that i'm very very FOOLISH... maybe i'm wrong tu hab love eu so much... so so much... it hurts when i cant find eu in my mind... it hurts when i see eu treating another girl the same why eu had treated mie before... mux eu wait till eu see another guy lovin' mie derx way that eu've loved miie derx way before den eu noe how hurtin' it feels?? all i nid ish eu

00:42

07 August 2006

tu eu my friend...i will neber be able tu find a one true love cos i hab neber loved one so deeply b4

my story:

a girl knew a guy by chance. long b4 she knew she was ready fer a relationship. since tis was her first, she tried to treasure tis so-called relationship - her guy neber had the courage to hold her hand till his friends told him to do so. neber once he wanted to truely hold her hand. this last fer 3 yrs - wif a one time break up but patched back soon after. neglacted she felt, but she truely wanted tis reationship to last as he told her even b4 he met her that he only wanted her tu be his forever. but tis fanstasy ended without much of a hope. she found out that in the past, the guy she loved so dearly had actually two-timed her. wad more could she ask for but asking fer the truth to be told from him. in the end, they broke up and ended a long 3 yrs relationship. the girl is mie. the guy is d.l. i can tell eu truthfully that i'm still waiting fer the truth to be told.

the end

maybe time will come fer the right guy to appear in my life. but wad fer shld i nid it now when i hab a big caring family?? but i'll carrying waiting...

02:27

01 August 2006

Why did i ask Sebastian to do that? feel very "dumbfounded". i jux dun understand why i did that? was it fer the fun of it or was i trying to find trouble b4 trouble comes knocking onto my door? maybe i jux wan to let him noe that that year i dun hate him fer 2-timing me, maybe jux a lil, but because i heard it from k.h and not him. i noe in a relationship both sides are at fault when there's a break-up or others intruding the relationship. my problem ish that i ignored him during my exam periods, from wad k.h told me. but he oso gotta understand that i'm havin my exams and i nid to study to pass. that lasted fer 3 years. a long, cold relationship came to an end in sept 2005. wad else more can i say? NOTHING. guessin he may hab a gurl rite fer him now and hope that dhey may last longer den we did.

If he ever step into my blog, jux wan to let him noe that when mistakes are made, only some will hab a second chance, depending on eur sincerity and whether can eu ever make the same person ever shower wif the things eu've done b4 to the opposite and vice versa. only the truth shines within one true self. and also i wan to tell him that derx msg he sent to mie when i was in sec 1 in sept 2003, i will neber ferget cos that was derx most touching thing that i hab ever recieved till now because eu ever told miie that eu would wann to marry miie. but now that ish a history.

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