maybe... onli maybe.. i will choose tu be wif boon.. keays i admitt dat i chose tu be wif him ish because he's rich... but not onli he's rich den i m wantin tu be wif him... ytd told him how i felt fer him... i really felt love fer him... something i haven felt fer about 2 yrs... now jux hoping something dat will come out from his precious mouth... something only if the male side say ish better... i really am hoping... jux hoping fer my wish tu come true... i'm not desperate... i can wait... i will wait... jux hoping fer a right guy...
today i oso very sad... he scolded miie... well his not scold basically... we had a tan pan session... yup...literally... the pain actually peirced thru my heart... it's so hurting... i couldnt control my tears.. i did try... but in the end... i still couldnt... during the whole session i jux sat dher quietly, jux nodding, shaking my head as an answer tu him. i couldnt bring myself tu open my mouth tu tell him, i was afraid that the moment i open my mouth i would start scolding, cursing and swearing at him. the pain hurt so much i couldnt bring my head up tu look into his eyes.
quiet. hurt. anger. saddness. confused. betrayed.
all of these i felt during one day, nono!! jux barely 1/2 hr. imagine that the ppl that eu think eu could trust in the end betrayed eu, backstabbed eu, hurt eu. all jux in 1/2 hr... how not more pain can eu feel then derx person giving eu a lashing telling eu that it "hurts me telling eu all these but its all fer eur own good"??
dunch worry yii & diia.. thou these ppl i cant trust, i still hab eu guys wif me that i noe that i can trust eu all. i will try tu ferget wad has happened fer that 1/2 hr and try tu ferget that person. i will try.. i can do it... but nethertheless, he is someone who is still part of my life and part therefore.. but believe mie now that i totally, totally HATE HIM TU THE CORE!! I NEBER WOULD TRUST THE PEOPLE THERE ANYMORE!! I TOTALLY HATE THOSE PEOPLE!! TOTALLY!!
