25 September 2006
it hurts miie
really alot alot
especially he say that ish it meaning that we cant meet anymore??
it hurts
thou i say i hate him tu derx core jux the other day
but he means alot in my life...
if without him
by today i'm already GROUNDED FER LIFE!!
not only that
he let me noe wad love ish all about ( cant disclose more )
it really hurts
really really very painful
but does he understand??
why he tinks that if i'm wif boon i'll never wan tu meet him again??
HURTING, but does he understand??
i think he will never
if i really dunch wan tu see him or tok tu him again,
why would take the initiative tu msg him first??
why??
why would i??
why? why? why?
really that other day i told myself i dunch wan tu tok tu him
dun wan tu see him again...
but i cant bear myself tu do so
that's whty despite wad i've said
i still did msg him out of concern...
but will he understand tis point??
i doubt it
i really doubt it
cos if he really did
he wouldnt hab asked miie that question today...
i jux hope he would understand miie that way i hab tried tu understand him
but nethertheless
if i dunch change my ways
pls take it that he has lost a precious daughter
and that tis daughter of his has been gone
i dunch wan tu embarass him again
i dunch wan others tu tink bad bout him
not being a good "father"
i rather that they tink bad of miie only...
thinking that i'm a brat cos i'm never going tu trust those ppl again...
ya i'm a brat so wad??
BIG DEAL??!!
eu other guys are backstabbers
betrayers
i will never going tu trust eu all again...
ever again!!
i'm jux another SPOLIT BRAT!!
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