31 October 2006

ii dunch noe wad else tu say.
is our relationship failing?
ii am tinking too much lerx.

today he came over,
tu my work place, his OLD work place.
but he neber send mie home,
neber say hie,
neber say bye,
jux came and left.
ii saw minxin,daniel and him,
all walking tu his vehicle,
leaving telok blangah.
ii was sitting alone at the bus stop.
ii couldnt help stop tinkin wad's goning tu happen if we continue lidat.
ii could only wish fer the best tu happen.
ii love him,
it will hurt alot if something drastic happens.
maybe,initally, ii shld gib more time considering acceptin him.
or maybe wad ii did was right, ii hope.

ii heard tis song in my mp3 when ii was in the train home.
ii was really upset,
thinking alots.
den ii heard tis song,
it greatly depicts what ii feel.
I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind
I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall
You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boyI need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

plus another song dat ii jux came upon;
[V1]
Sitting on the bus
Looking through the window
And I close my eyes
I see the shade of your smiling face
Your smiling face
When you walk in through the door
Smiling face
Like I've never seen before
[V2]
Standing in the rain
Nearly washed the day away
Then I think of you
I know the sight of your smiling face
Your smiling face
And it's always here with me
Smiling face
Well I wonder could it be
[CHORUS]
I still know
That I'm never gonna find you
But I do believe
That you're standing right behind
Will I ever get
The answer to my question
Life will go on, on
[V3]
Lying on my bed
Staring at the ceiling
Then I close my eyes again
The only thing that's clear to me
Is your smiling face
Maybe I should wake again
Smiling face
Maybe I should let it continue(end)

can someone help miie tu pass tis msg tu my ddear,
it seems like he wont reply my msgs anymore.
he doesnt even comes here,
ii really wish he does.
here's my msg tu him;
my ddear,
ii wait fer eur msgs every nitex.
ii love those sweet msgs eu've sent b4,
it was so sweet that ii would even smile when ii am asleep.
ii wan us tu be back like b4,
so sweet and loving,
being able tu be together almost every single day.

~ling will always love her boon, always~

23:30

every nitex ii slp
ii will tink of eu.
ii cant slp without tinking of eu,
becos ii love eu alots.
ii cant possibly get eu out of my mind,
becos ii love eu.
whole year,
whole month,
whole week,
whole day,
every hour,
every minute,
every second,
ii am thinking of eu.
do eu noe dat?
ii may not be with eu physically,
but ii am always with eu mentally.
am ii with eu mentally all e time??
yes ii am.
ii cant jux possibly do something else without thinking of eu.
ii cant possilby do dat.
ii hope dat eu will not leave me,
my dearest.
ii want tu hold eur hands till ii am old.
ii wan tu be by eur side all e time,
all jux becos ii love eu alots.
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heyy peps,
ii am in love.
definately.
ii cant get my love one out of my mind.
ii will go crazy if ii dont recieve his sms.
tis ish definately e sign of love.
ii love my boon alots.
ii noe he does love his ling alots too.
guys are like kites.
girls are e ones who fly e kites.
ii pull in e kite only when necessary,
so dat my guy will not breakaway.
ii cant take it if my guy breaks-away,
becos ii love him alots.
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tu my darling/anyone who can pass tis msg tu him:
ii love eu.
ii dun wan tu leave eur side.
ii cant take it if eu were tu leave.
my darling,
eu're my kite,
and ii will not let eu breakaway from miie,
becos ii love eu alots.

~ling love boon; ferever and ever~

16:10

16:10

30 October 2006

ii looked at yii blog jux now
ii really wished ii can hold his hand ferever and ever.
but it seems like he neber care bout mie.
maybe ii am thinking too much lerx.
he most prob is busy bahx.
or maybe ii bluffing myself too much.
are guys lidat??

ii see my sis and her guy are not lidat leix.
5 months lerx still so en ai.
not a single day see dhem apart.
ii so envy dhem.
ii wish ii could be lyk dhem.
ii wishing fer boon tu be always beside mie.
ii miss e time dat we almost everyday together.

ytd he left without telling mie
ii so sad.
ii cried in e pool.
somemore raining.
ii tot he will care more.
ii neber felt both happy and sad within a day.
ii very happy when he came,
ii became very sad when he left,
without miie.

ii wan him very much.
ii wan him tu hab his freedom,
ii oso wan mine.
however,
ii cant seem tu keep him by my side.

darling, boon huan,
ii love eu.
ii wan eu.
ii think of eu every single day,
every single hour,
every single minute,
every single second.
even rite now ii thinking of eu
and no one else.
tell me, my love,
how can we be together everyday
being happy every second??

13:03

29 October 2006

roaming e streets today.
been tu e places we've been tu.
ii never forget those places,
those moments.
ii haven gone insane,
ish jux dat ii wan tu be happy.
tu feel those happy moments of my life.
ii didnt bring my fone out,
didnt mit yii,
didnt go guitar lesson.
ii wan tu hab back that feel.
when ii got home jux now,
ii recieved msgs from him.
however mostly were from yii and sotong.
touched by their concerns,
but ii didnt reply any of them.
ii jux wan tu be alone fer e day.

tu deardear:
no matter wad happens,
no matter how long it takes,
tis very song on my blog,
it is an expession tu eu,
telling you ii will always be waiting,
waitin fer eu,
and ii will hab no regrets waiting.
bcosh,
ling will always love boon;
forever and ever love him.

ii love eu, boon huan =)

00:51

28 October 2006

tu my deardear:
ii put tis song, deng dai, in here,
telling eu dat ii will wait fer eur return from switzerland.
no matter how long it takes,
eu can be assured dat ii will wait fer eur return.
ii love eu alot,
but jux dun ignore miie keays??
tis song in here,
it will not be changed till eu return.
and everyday ii will place new blogs in here,
telling eu how has e day been passed.
ii dun like being lonely,
ii wan tu noe dat as long as a day is being passed,
eu will be there fer mie no matter wad happens.

ii love eu, boon huan =)

17:43

27 October 2006

ii feeling so un-loved now.
he last nitex sendin sms scolding miie,
ii very sad and oso cried tu slp.
only if he noes how ii feel,
but its my hopeful tinking.
ii really loving him alots,
ii trying my best-est tu understand him.
ii very confused now.
ii thought wif one time experience b4,
ii can change e things ii wan,
but ii guess ii cant at all.
if only ii noe wad he ish tinking,
only if ii noe how he feels,
ii guess things may turn out differently.

ii love FREEDOM.
ii am a bird dat loves flying around.
however,
ii am a bird,
a bird dat ish kept as a pet,
a bird dat nids showering of love,
and a bird dat showers others wif love.

ii dun like tu be a JAIL-bird.
neither would ii like my other part of miie be.
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ii see couples wawlking down e streets,
loving and happy.
ii wish ii could be like dem.
ii wish dat e other miie would like dat too.

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ii guess he's rite.
ii am too much of a control freak.
but he has tu understand why ii am lidat.
ii guess he will not even gib a damn tu underdstand miie.
very soon ii will be a stand alone again.
my heart breaks into a million thousand pieces.
ii cry everytime ii tink bout it.

CAN ANYONE SAVE MIIE FROM ALL THESE??
II TINK II AM GOING TU DIE.

14:33

26 October 2006

ii love tu be in control??
eu love freedom??
wad e??
wad ever...
ii nid tu clarify dat,
ii am no control freak...
ii dunch wan derx same thing tu happen again,
on my second relationship.
ii love being loved,
and ii love having someone dat ii can love.
ii am jux afraid,
afraid dat e history will repeat its self'.
if it really does,
ii cant stop it,
ii will accept my fate.
however ii dun wan it tu happen.
ii love my darling,
ii dun wan tu leave him.
ii cant imagine leaving without,
without being loved,
or loving someone.
ii will definately go insane.

ii will wait fer my darling,
no matter wad,
unless he says he dun wan mie anymore.
but ii love him so much,
dat ii oso wan tu noe if he, too, love miie as much as ii do.
if fate says dat we cant be together,
ii will change fate,
definately.
ii cant bear e pain tu leave my darling.
he's my everything,
he's equivlent tu my life.
losing him may nort only cos miie pain,
but death too.
ii swear dearly tu GOD,
if anything happens,
ii will always be e first tu be by his side.
ii will be e first tu console him,
e first tu make him smile or laugh,
no matter wad it cost or takes,
becos ii love him.
and becos ii love him,
ii will teasure him with all my life.
wad's e matter wif him now??
he's neber so fierce b4...
ii am really scared now.
mummy says he's a self centred guy and ii shouldnt be wif him.
but...but
ii love him so dearly.
ii am terribly afraid.

tu my darling:
ii love eu my dear,
forever and ever.

but now,
after recieving his sms,
my heart stops serveral beats... ...
... ... ...no pluse now... ... ... ... ...

23:26

00:55

14 October 2006

wad happened between us??
why did sisters hab tis kind of troubles??
i tot my life has changed fer derx better
but now i guessed it hadnt
and it has even dropped fer derx worst of the worst

i tot we are sisters
and sisters are tu share problems together
tu solve the problems that each other hab
tu make the better of each other's life..

but maybe i'm not fit tu be sisters wif eu ppl
i caused more problems
rather then solving it
i'm useless
i'm not fit tu be a sister
really

i shld take a step back
maybe not only a step
a few thousand steps back
tu be back tu my usual self
like the way i used tu be

i rather not care but anything
den get myself into a whole lot of trouble

tu yii:
sorrie fer wad happened
i noe it's too late fer apologises
but i'm truly sorrie
if i'm really the caused fer eu and ben tu quarrell
i'm sorrie,truly sorrie
and i will oso nort do anything that eu dun like

15:49

04 October 2006

life's complicating,
my life i mean

i'm jux confused
really totally confused.

i dunch noe why.
even if i noe why,
i cant tell.
not even tu the closest people i hab.

my problems,
i'll solve on my own.
i jux nid someone tu understand
tu understand wad i'm going thru.
tu gimme derx support i nid

if i cant solve my problems,
who will do so fer miie??

if eu really wan tu help,
jux dunch put more problems into my current problems.
i'm stressed enough

STOP!!
okii,
many thoughts running thru my mind rite now,
the solutions tu my problems.
i nid tu think thru throughly.

believe miie,
i jux nid a time out.
jux gimme a lil more time
and i'll find an answer...
trust miie...

19:26

03 October 2006

09:29

02 October 2006

i jux dunch understand
we are very close tu each other
ish it jux because of another friend
that has appeared
and we hab been closer den ever,
and dat both of us aint dat close
or dat both of eu aint dat close anymore??
i really jux dunch understand

i noe eu angry cos yii may not be tellin eu as much as she ish tu miie now

but diia,
no matter wad it ish
no sister bond can be broken
ish jux derx distance we're havin
or maybe its jux dat derx bond between both yii and ii getting closer
that's all...

17:24

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