ii love tu be in control?? eu love freedom?? wad e?? wad ever... ii nid tu clarify dat, ii am no control freak... ii dunch wan derx same thing tu happen again, on my second relationship. ii love being loved, and ii love having someone dat ii can love. ii am jux afraid, afraid dat e history will repeat its self'. if it really does, ii cant stop it, ii will accept my fate. however ii dun wan it tu happen. ii love my darling, ii dun wan tu leave him. ii cant imagine leaving without, without being loved, or loving someone. ii will definately go insane. ii will wait fer my darling, no matter wad, unless he says he dun wan mie anymore. but ii love him so much, dat ii oso wan tu noe if he, too, love miie as much as ii do. if fate says dat we cant be together, ii will change fate, definately. ii cant bear e pain tu leave my darling. he's my everything, he's equivlent tu my life. losing him may nort only cos miie pain, but death too. ii swear dearly tu GOD, if anything happens, ii will always be e first tu be by his side. ii will be e first tu console him, e first tu make him smile or laugh, no matter wad it cost or takes, becos ii love him. and becos ii love him, ii will teasure him with all my life. wad's e matter wif him now?? he's neber so fierce b4... ii am really scared now. mummy says he's a self centred guy and ii shouldnt be wif him. but...but ii love him so dearly. ii am terribly afraid. tu my darling: ii love eu my dear, forever and ever.
but now, after recieving his sms, my heart stops serveral beats... ... ... ... ...no pluse now... ... ... ... ...
