22 February 2007
every year,on dis very special day,ii will always reflect on wad ii hab done fer the year.
but dis today it's different.norts much of a difference,but there's still a difference around.today,ii reflected on the day,22 Feb '07.
"she" came home jux now,telling both sister and ii dat it's because of me always pulling a long black face dat made "him" very unhappy.[wait a minute!it wasnt me keays.it was sister who was pulling a long face cos she was very tired lerx.] why did "she" cared so much if he was unhappy?is it cos "she" still loves "him" so dearly?ii hate it when "she" gives me dat
STUPID look on her face. someone told me ii look nice wif my hair platted up.but when ii told her she was lyk [argh] wantin tu throw up.ii was tinkin, if "she" wanted tu throw up den do so.if "she" tinks derx opposite way of wad my friend tink den say so-pls stop trying tu act cute cos eu aint cute at all.[f
cuk off b
ctih!]if "she tinks it's alrite tu do so,tink again cos it hurts ones confident and inner self."she" aint beautiful,"she's" jux super duper fat and doesnt admit tu it.enough of her,cos every tot of her,ii wan tu
PKUE!!
today ii msged [him].[he] hardly replied at all.ii feel hurt,so so hurt.but ii noe [he's] troubled so ii didnt wan tu make [him] more stressed out.all becos ii love [him] dat's why.
when one loves someone else, each wan derx other party tu understand dhem.yes,ii do too.but at derx same tym ii mux understand how dis other person feels too.since dis other person is troubled, gib dis other person some free space tu breathe.but wad if at derx same tym eu're troubled but eu wan tu share eur trouble wif dat other person,wad are eu tu do?at dis point, ii am dumbfounded.ii cant find an answer fer dis question of mine.as long as ii breathe derx air of planet earth, as long as my hearts beats, ii will always love [him],only.
ii will end here fer today.
thanks fer being my listenin ear.
Labels: world thinking day : my thinkin of my fuckin life. ii hate it how "she" treats me.
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