13 August 2007
today, she very upset.
for 2 things actually.
one:
she upset cus she thinks her friends dun care her.
she think till she use macanical pencil tu scratch her wrist.
she was tramatised by events in primary school,
she's so afraid tt she will lose her friends agains.
she noes they dun lyk her,
but she's tryin hard tu gain friends thru the proper way.
they way they whisper into each other ears,
makes her more afraid.
the more she's afraid,
the more she wants to hurt herself.
she now doesn't noe who is true tu her.
she guards herself from them.
she keeps everything tu herself.
what more can she do?
she has to protect herself.
two:
her chinese 'O' level results is least of what she has expected.
she gotten a C6 instead of a B4 or more.
she hates herself to the core.
she studied so hard but the result??
what more does she wants?
she cant do much now,
but to prepare herself for the last battle.
she got to do well tis tym round.
she can't lose agains.
she can't!!
she can't take it much longer.
she's a rubberband tt has stretched tu the maximum.
she's gonna break soon.
she wanna leave tis world of stress, confusion and danger.
but she do not wan tu leave her friends.
she loves her friends more then she loves herself and all.
one day,
jus one day she will break.
one day... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
Labels: she cant hold on much longer.she needs someone.
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