27 May 2008
getting all e emotional fucked up these days.ii dun noe why, but yea, ii hab started tu tink of him agains andd ii'm norts concentrating on my studies at all, nothing's registering inside my BLOODY HEAD! ii'm sho freaking pissed till ii teared up during tutorial ytd. but ii still cant get all my facts rites andd ii'm norts contributing tu any of the project discussions at all. [grrr!!]
ii dun noe who tu turn tu. norts kittyn, cus she's stressing on hannya alrdy, norts my mum, cus she's stressing over her work, norts any people of the gang, cus dhey wont understand, norts my klas ppl, cus dhey too wont understand, andd definately norts him, cus he's alrdy stressing on his work andd e m1 bill stuff. [ SHIT! ] ii really hab no one left. [ SHIT! ]
ii noe ii hab tu work under stress tu complete my work, but too much stress aint getting me anywhere at all. ii cant get stuff into my head andd ii cant tink. [ yea.all these stuff are jus flowing out thru my BRAINS! ]
cant tink straight, cant work straight, dun even feel lyk going tu skool, dun feel lyk going cca, dun feel lyk studying, but ii cant! ii wann tis course sho badly andd ii cant afford tu fail.what's more, mis semester test is coming up nxt week andd ii haven studied a single crap out of all my lecture notes. ii dun tink ii even hab e mood tu eat a single thing now even. but ii'm sho freaking hungry.
~I NEED A BREAK!!~
dher. ii've said it. ii really nid one rites now.if norts ii tink ii'll hab a total emotional break down soon.[argh]
holidays are after mid semester tests andd ii wann go kl tu take a break from everythingg here.but ii dun tink ii cann. projects are pilling up andd hab no tym other den holidays tu do it.ii'm going tu crash!!emotionally. why am ii in such a deep SHIT!??!!
~WHEN CANN I HAVE MY BREAK??!!~
ii jus wann tu find a place, hide myself andd norts tink bout anythingg else. but ii'm afraid. afraid tt i'll think of him agains.cus ii really nid him, too, now. but he's sho far away from me andd ii dun thing he wann me/ noes tt ii'm waiting fer him.
ii gotta push myself tu F-F-I-I-GHT!! andd S-S-C-C-ORE!! ii cant fail myself!!NEVER!!!!!!ii'm gonna continue andd strive to do my very best. [oh crap! stress ii nid eu tu help me nw!!]
~what e nonsense!!~
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