30 November 2008
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ytd went wif mel tu orchard to do some shopping.
went tu taka and bought a set of men's belt and wallet.
it was bout $59.90.
ii noe its a lil cheapo, but it's the thoughts that counts rites?
well, its fer xmas. so ya. its fer some random lucky guy tu get it.
-gift xchange mahs.-
was quite pissed off during shopping though.
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headed over to SAFRA fer a swim ytd.
things chilled out after a swim.
but why did some irritating person tu come spoil it agains?
anyways,after swim, when over tu potters' tu do some work.
after tt, went fer dinner wif mel after his work, which was bout 9pm.
dinner wif him over at my hse dher the coffeeshop.
called mum, supposed tu ask her fer early transcation of allowance.
but she told me she was at one of the aunties' hse at hougang.
decided tu head over, mel dropped me off.*lovesloves*
and ii ate more. much more. and drank 3 glasses of red wine.
-guess ii was really tired, in the car K.O-ed and slept all the way in the late morning after waking up at bout six/seven-ish in the morning.-
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are all guys such a creep?
hmm. well guess its only meant tu be one guy in my life tu be one.
well, if eu wann tu cor me a BITCH,
say it straight lars, dun go one big round and shoot me cann?
anyways, things are over.
let this happen tu me only once and fer all.
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ok. today met up wif mel fer lunch over at vivo.
ii noe she's kinda quite mad at me cus of me running off somewhere and etc,
leaving her halfway, roaming around on her own.
-omg! ii feel so bad.-
anyways, today really spent all of her time tu be wif her.
really enjoy spending tym out wif her.
although ii cann only see her buying her stuff, while ii cann only window shopp.
-well the fun part is not bout the buying of stuffs, its the company that eu hab.-
anyways, went wif her tu gate 13 tu look fer her brother, den down tu bugis tu shopp.
den bout 4plus 5, went back tu look fer her brother.
saw ken dher too.
-well he seem much better and happier den last tym (honestly)-
pei them fer their lunch before mel and ii headed tu raffles city tu "shop" more.
mel left earlier den xpected, so ii headed down tu find joyce over at acid.
spent some time over at acid den went off fer more shopping.
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mel drove over tu cityhall dher tu pick me up.
so nice of him. *lovesloves*
we headed down tu bugis fer more "shopping" but in teh end gott nothing.
but lyk ii said, its the company that counts, its not the buyin of stuff.
ok. den we headed back tu put our stuff den headed out fer dinner wif his family at Lau Ba Sa.
den now over at his place. did part of my project stuffs, but going slp soon.
continuing it tml. well, that's life though. =)
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ok. heading fer bed now. nites!
Labels: dun make one round just tu shoot me. tell me straight.
01:30
28 November 2008
OMG!!OMG!!OMG!!OMG!!OMG!!OMG!!OMG!!OMG!!OMG!!
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guess who ii saw jus now??!!
SERENE OW!! and Ms Tan S.L
guess where?
Orchard, Paragon.
ii was laughing my ass off till mel almost kicked my ass.
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okok. ii better stop blogging and eat.
eating at the central at taka wif mel.
*loves*
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15:47
27 November 2008
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mel was really sweet today.
he sent me tu sch. -he's the other person tt besides my parents and bus captain tu send me tu sch.-
anyways, ii really appreciate it. *loves*
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ok.now having luch break in sch.
lesson begins at 2pm today which will last till 6pm.
-sighs- CDS day today for me.
yea! tml should be going tu ARENA's sale.
supposed tu go ytd, but cus of mel's work ending late, too bad, didnt go.
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tagg board replies:
>mark : yea, ii'm getting better.what's the event on sat? ii'm norts sure if ii'm able to make it though. i'll try. =)
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okok. better go mit up wif my classmates now.
-neh- aint gonna eat. norts much time left anyways.
*winks* cya!
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13:05
26 November 2008
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last
nites had dinner over at
mel's hse.
dinner
wasnt so bad,
wasnt as nice as grandma's though. -oops-
anyways, spent sometime over
dher.
did a
lil bit of projects here and
dher.
and
mel saw my
blogg. -
shouldnt hab opened it up-
well, he asked wad was it
tt ii mentioned in an earlier post on "using harsh words" and "doing things
tt ii dint like".
ii actually forgotten, really.
why?
cus ii dun wan
tu be remembered of the unhappy past.
"it's reality,"
mel told me.
but the problem with me is
tt,
ii prefer
tu live in a world of dreams;a world of fantasies.
______________________________________________anyways, ii really thank
mel tu be by my side
everytime.
ii really do hope my attention spend fer him will not be short.
cus ii really
wann tu be with him forever.
ii really
wann tu kip away those unhappiness of my dark past.
and
ii'm changing something,
my
ridiculous smoking habit.
he's the motivation tt makes me wann tu do this.
and ii do hope it'd be successful this time around.
______________________________________________ii love boo.boo lots. and ii wann tu prove boo.boo tt wif him as a motivation and my strength, ii'm able tu stop.
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10:08
24 November 2008
* very muchies thanks tu mel_ho who taught me something new*
**lovesloves eu lots**___________________________________________________
anyways, the decision in my heart is set tu be final.
-yesh, ii've made a decision-
it is all thanks tu him on the other nites for helping me made up that decision so fast.
it doesnt hurt, cus ii dun love him as muchies as ii love bh.
-and yesh, ii'm a evil girl.-
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taggboard:
>diia : meimei. happy being able tu tok tu eu once agains. XD
>kittyn : ii noe eu will always "loubetches" me. <3
>mark : thanks alots. :)
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all ii noe now is tt,
because ii followed my heart and my happiness want me to go,
I'M VERY HAPPY and BLESSED now.
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16:11
19 November 2008
i dun noe.
the feeling is all different now.
ii just get so pissed off with him fer even lil things.
sometimes, i would wan him tu put himself in my shoes.
tink and feel how ii would tink and feel.
ii'm so tired out rites now.
he so lyk jus f*** care my feelings nowadays.
ii noe ii should understand his work situation,
but not to this extend, please.
ii'm not his nanny or what-so-ever.
oh. the feeling is just so crap.
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i should jus disappear,
and make no one feel hurt.
guess the one tt will only feel hurt is me.
cus rites now,
it's all shattering into pieces once agains.
and the pain would be unbearable if i cant let it all out.
@#$%^&*()
i jus need to cry it out tis tym,
but i cant.
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save me someone.
pry my heart open and freeze it,
so i will love no one no more.
16:09
ii jus got tu decide, dont ii?
ii cant jus be sitting on the fence all day long, right?
if would have a choice, ii would want tu disappear.
wouldnt it just make things easier?
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ii'm sick and tired of looking after eu.
ii dun feel the love and concern tt eu give.
ii dun feel lyk eur girl anymore, eu understand?
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what's wrong wif eu?
eu noe bout him while he doesnt.
ii practically noe tt ii love eu more than him,
and ii bet eu cann feel it too.
but why do eu hab tu use harsh words on me?
why do eu hab eu make me do things tt ii hate to?
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yesh. ii noe ii'm avoiding the problem now.
but ii do slightly believe in karma.
ii dun wann the same thing tu happen tu me jus lyk wad ii did.
ii noe ii got tu make a decision fast.
someone's gotta be hurt.
and ii'm sure it's gonna be neither one of them.
cus ii rather the person tu be hurt is me.
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let me be the one broken-hearted.
01:30
09 November 2008
love trap.
2guys,N and M, plus 1girl.
N is a guy ii've known recently, and M is another guy that ii've known fer quite sometime back.
N is a really understanding guy. but most of his tym is dedicated to his work and ii would spend most of my tym trying tu meet him up.ii understand his job scope, ii know what he is doing, but ii got the insecurity feeling when ii'm wif him.ii always tend tu think of the negative side of his doing, never the positive side. funny thing is that, i trust him.
M is a really nice guy. he is shuai, is jus tt his bod is gone case. recently we jus got into contact agains and hab been spending most of my time wif him. he would take the initative to come find me even though he stays pretty far. he's been really nice to bring me out fer dinner/movie.
deciding between N and M is kinda difficult cus both hab their different points. i dont know. the deciding factor is difficult. ii nid someone tu tok to.
one thing tt M doesnt know is that ii do do the thing tt he wouldnt lyk me tu do. the one thing tt N doesnt know is tt the close-ness ii'm tu M.
ARGH!! everything's so wrong. ii noe ii cant take both. it will hurt them as much as it would hurt me. how ii wish all of this would never had happened.
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school's been great so far. but ii hab event after event to do. now staying home, being a "good" girl. then tonites will be going tu grand's hse fer dinner. miss grandma alots. haven seen her fer lyk ages because of my events and stuff.
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haven been hanging out wif kittyn and nina fer pretty long tym. seems tt things hab started to fade between us. ii dun noe. but jus hab the feeling. -yeayea,ii'm superb sensitive.but so what?-
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now ii nid tu sort my own personal things out. ii dun noe. but ii'm afraid my schoolwork will be affected by it. ii do hope to really settle down soon fer this semester.
14:21
03 November 2008
its been long time since ii've blog.-hahas-
anyways. now in class. BCS. quite sians though.-lols-
ok.been really busy over the week sho no time at all tu blog xcept tu reply tu taggs on tagg board.
last week went out till quite late everyday, plus friday had D&D, sho quite busy and stuff. -happening if some may say.-
hab tu listen tu class now.
bye.XD
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