14 December 2008
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ii tink ii did a really bad thing ytd.
ii noe ii shouldnt hab done it,
but, once agains, its really tough.
ii now really promise it will be the last tt it will happen.
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maybe ii should jus start giving whatever ii hab now.
it is the hurt ii feel at times that ii tink ii wont be able tu hang on any longer.
the hurt, but unable tu cry it out.
ii'm becoming emotion-less.
ii tink by giving all up will hurt lesser people ard me.
ii dun noe lars.
its really all so confusing.
ii no longer wan tu hurt him anymore.
unknowingly, ii tink ii hab hurt him time and time agains.
giving up should be hurting him once and fer all,
and that he may find someone better than me bahs.
maybe living off single is the kind of life fer me.
ii dun noe. ii jus feel so down and confused inside now.
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I JUST WANT TO QUIT* RIGHT NOW, RIGHT HERE.*everything, from habits tu life.
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