30 January 2009

tears fall upon hearing this song.
it will always be our's.
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You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see
You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days

I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise

You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see
You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days

I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise

I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise
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*i cant really concentrate without you

00:12

29 January 2009

from being top of the world, i have fallen back into the arms of Satan.
i am not worthy of your love anymore.
hate me if you must to forget me.
in every single way, you mean everything to me.
it is you that makes my world go round.
thanks for letting me fall in love with you.
thanks for letting me know that i ever had someone who really loves me that much.
thanks for everything that you have given to me.
you are one that i will never forget.
...that i will never forget the wrong that i have done to you.
...that i will never forget the hurt that i have inflicted on you.
...that i will beg for your forgiveness, and not hope that you will ever forgive me.
i don't know what else to say...
i only know that life has really brightened up after i known you.
leaving you has brought my life crashing down.
sorry is not enough.
nevertheless, SORRY for every stupid thing that i have done.
SORRY for hurting you.
SORRY for disturbing your peaceful life.
SORRY..
SORRY...
SORRY....
the number of times of SORRY will not mend the bridge that has torn apart.
but i do hope you will find a new bridge to start your path anew.

23:10

28 January 2009

ok. so tentatively the date fer the BBQ will be on the 19th March 2009.

and STRICTLY...

NO CAKE!

ii just so hate "CAKE FIGHTS"!!

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ok.so after the CNY'09, PROJECT DEADLINES ARE UP!!

*SHUCKS* ii'm so dead...!!

10:11

23 January 2009

INVITATION!!

hi all my lovely, adorable, sweet darh-lings.

here's the outline on what's happening on in MARCH!!

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Event: My 19th Birthday Party

When?? : 18th - 20th March 2009

Where?? : Aloha Changi Neathervon Terrace A

Theme?? : BACK TO SCHOOL**

Who?? : YOU!YOU!and YOU!!

Other Information?? : Wondering if you can stay over? YES YOU CAN!*

* if you are thinking of going to OCH, DONT come back to the CHALET!!

** Complusory ANY school attire/uniform will do

Please do contact me if you want to know more details via my tagboard or email tannyi@hotmail.com

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ok. so the ACTUAL date of the BBQ has not been decided yet.

it will be based on MAJORITY on who can make it on which date.

REALLY DO CONTACT ME AT LEAST 1 WEEK IN ADVANCE IF YOU CAN MAKE IT AND ON WHICH DATE!

thanks.that's all fer now.

19:23

21 January 2009

PROJECTS UNDER CONSTRUCTION!

and ii'm planning to burn the midnites oil tonites.

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tons and tons of projects to complete before Chinese New Year arrives.
-most prob welcoming the new year wif my pile of projects-
oh well, tt's my results fer storing all my projects at the end.
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first thing first.
sorry darling.
morning insisted on wanting tu mit up wif eu.
had tu made eu re-schedule eur plans fer today.
at the end of the day, still didnt mit eu up.
and eu had tu re-re-schedule eur plans.
sorry darling.
really have no appetite to eat anything now.
and ii wont be sleeping for tonites.
-maybe fer awhile-
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secondly,
sorry fer not updating blog.
its PROJECT, PROJECT, PROJECT, and more PROJECT
so time now spent is wif the boyfriend and project.
-except fer mondays' lunch wif melmel-
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ok. better put my brainless head back into my HUGE pile of PROJECTS.

*loves eu all and advance wishes fer CNY*

Labels: project deadlines are NEXT WEEK

22:53

15 January 2009

wah. a relieve at last.
today's the last session of doing flight arrivals at Changi.
tml ii'll be at the Marina Mandarin Hotel and F1 'pad' club.
*yuppie!!* finally no nid wait at airport lyk toopid idiot alrdy.
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had dinner wif darling at Marine Parade there.
bused home from dher. not too long a bus ride though.
-ii always thought busing tu and fro marine parade was long-
anyways, now home alrdy. heading tu bed soon.
miss darling lots. dun noe wad ii'll do without him.
*nites fer now*
a long day waits me tml.

Labels: ii'm not your perfect lil girl

23:48

14 January 2009

thanks dear fer taking the long bus ride wif me home,
even though eu hate long bus rides,
and that eu are tired.
ii noe eu are trying tu pry what has happened,
but it is jus words cant come out.
it unlike me cus wad ever ii wan tu say will jus come out,
but facing eu, sorry but the words jus come out.
if eu tink ii'm mad, ii can tell eu,

YES, I AM MAD. MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU!

ii'm jus afraid. afraid wad will happen if ii lose eu.
cus, eu're different. ii'm willing tu hurt myself instead of hurting eu.
ii noe eu wan tu share this with me, but ii jus cant help it.
ii jus cant hurt eu anymore.
sorry. sorry if ii hab tu hide away from eu.
ii'm afraid tt ii'll be the one hurting eu.

23:10

now ii'm afraid if ii love eu more, ii'll hurt eu more.
do eu understand?
ii rather ii'm the one being hurt den eu're.
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let me put it this way,
if there is a cross-fire, and eu're about tu be shot,
ii would take tt bullet fer eu, with no regrets.
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ii dun noe. maybe ii'm jus not the right girl fer eu.
ii'm not the perfect one tt eu hab in mind.
ii hab lots of flaws, eu noe?

Labels: p.s. i love you

11:28

13 January 2009

hearing eur voice, ii could feel the smile in my heart lit up.
but was it something tt ii said/do wrong tt made eu raise eur voice?
tt lil raise, eu may not note.
but it does break tt smile into pieces.
ii shall not say more.
it does hurt me.
coming or not, eu choose. ii cant decide.
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*ps ii (really) love eu

19:54

in school lyk rites now. slacking the tym away.
tonites should be able tu hab dinner wif darh-ling.
but ii hab tu be at the airport.
-arrival of the delegates- and last flight is arriving at 2115hrs.
*gosh* and will be at the airport till 2200hrs.
-damn!shouldnt hab volunteered today.-*wacks head*
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ok.suppose tu do project now, but not in the mood tu do anything at the moment.
the rest are doing it, and ii feel so bad not doing anything. *damn*
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ok.ii should get my head back into the project now. cya!!

14:10

12 January 2009

are all guys so fucked up?
ii jus dun understand.
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jus read nina's blog.
the way ii hear how ken's treating her, ii dun tink his worthy tu hab her.
playing lan and heck care the girlfriend. *WTH??!*
is this how eu're supposed tu treat eur other partner?
if my darh-ling ever do this tu me...*BIG SLAP* across his face man.
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anyways, brunch had wif melissa at vivo.
*KFC* hahas. and was really super filling.
*gosh* hab tu go dieting. everyday eating so much.can barely fit into my clothes.
after brunch, headed down tu sch fer lesson.
after lesson, went tu look fer CM. -thanks maisie fer going tu look fer her wif me-
LOA wasnt approved, most prob taking MC or jus pon and leave a ABSENT mark in records.
after which, headed down tu Toa Payoh fer meeting fer the event over the next 4 days.
*huh..*-den ii cant mit up wif darh-ling.-*sobs*
meeting was over at 7.30pm.
headed down tu meet melissa agains.
had a lil chat wif her, den went back home tu meet darh-ling. *lovesloves*
had dinner wif darh-ling at coffeeshop, den went up.
*yea* -and ii had my mango pudding tt dad bought specially fer me- *thanks dad*
-loves mango pudding alots.-
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most prob wont be seeing my darh-ling fer the next 3 to 4 days. *sobs*
cant behave lyk kiddo at event. -darh-ling always say ii lyk kiddo-
hab tu usher international delegates from arrival hall tu taxi stand.*blehs*
so nxt few days ii'll be lyk mad girl wif lil rest time.
-cant be unglam-
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ok. so, ii'll miss my darh-ling very badly. *almost crying*
cus ii everyday miss him lyk siao, but at least at nites still cann see him
however, these few days, cant even mit him fer dinner. -sadded-
ii'll miss him, but ii gotta learn tu be INDEPENDENT! *yea on a lighter tone*
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now, awaiting fer his call den ii'll put my (empty) head on my flat pillow.
-it got flat cus ii've been using it fer years now.-

nites fer now. misses all.

Labels: ii will miss eu SUPER badly for the nxt couple of days.